After walking a around a mile or two I found a good spot where the high surf from earlier had created a comfortable bench, looking outward into the dark ocean lit by Cozumel in the background, or into the star-filled sky, depending on your heads angle, and I popped a squat[1]. I was alone. It was quiet and peaceful.
My thoughts quickly went to what has been on my mind for the last few days. That is, what happens when I go back home broke[2]? I went through what my life would consist of if that was the case. Then for some reason I thought "ok, what would I do if I had ALL THE MONEY?". I went through imagining my life in that scenario as well. Then I laughed.
The two visions were pretty much the same[3]. I took a deep breath and felt much much better.
Hope all is well,
Ted
[1] The best way to walk on the beach if your goal is to work off dinner and do some soul-searching/thinking is as follows. Walk relatively quickly until you think you have gone far enough, this will give you some good exercise and clear your mind, as you can't thing when you move too fast. Then take a seat, relax, let your heart rate come down, do your thinking. Walk back really slowly as you can think clearly when you are moving slowly, refine your thoughts.
[2] Not absolute zero broke, but broke enough where pursuing this great dream of becoming a professional poker player no longer seems practical.
[3] Similarities consisted of family, work of some sort, improving myself, and trying to help others in some way. The differences were the type of work and the amount of time that I spent away from work.
