Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Ok so....

Yesterday all I was thinking about was how badly I wanted to drop out of school and be on my way. I kept on thinking about Steve Job's Stanford commencement speech and how he said if you wake up in the morning, look in the mirror, and say what I am going to do today is not what I want to do, than it is time to move on. All day I was thinking about this and I was one pep (it would have had to been good) talk away from packing up the car and heading on my way.
But then last night (I seem to be getting my best thinking done at night lately) I realized that I have not been wanting to go to school for the last little while for all the wrong reasons. Mostly I wanted to get out of here because I felt like the hole world was moving forward and I have been stuck in neutral for the past four years, every one is out in the world making money, getting married, and the like (Prof. Sergei reference).
However, this is not the way I (or any of us) should look at things, we should not compare ourselves to everyone else. I should rather only compare what I am doing with what I want to be doing, leaving what everyone else is doing or thinks I should be doing behind.
So what do I want to be doing.....some part of me does want to compete with everyone else and make the most money, have the best job, wife, etc. Another part wants to continue learning for the next 10 months because this opportunity might never be hear again. And yet another part wants to finish school because it would probably make my parents happier than if I didn't.
The exciting thing is the notion that when I graduate maybe all these different ways that I want to go could merge into one path (that sounds very Confucius like) ....yadda yadda yadda

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

To buy or not to buy

So last week I bought a new mac-book that ran me about $3600 total. Or so I thought, the other day I got an email that said my order had been canceled. I have no idea why. So now I can't decide whether to go through and buy it. Here is what I have been thinking
Pros-
I really want it
I could be more productive with it
I am not using the money for anything else (just sitting in the bank)
What better investment than investing in yourself, right
You only live once

Cons-
$3600 is a ton to spend on a computer
My computer is working fine (4 years old, disk drive doesn't work but I never use that)
I always shake my head when a kid drives by in a Benz "what a waste" I say... this is sort of the same thing
I should practice some self discipline and restrain myself for once

Thursday, February 16, 2012

List 1.0 (Suspects)

1. Under 30 and wearing a trench-coat
2. Using like more than 3 (unnecessarily) time in a sentence
3. Starting and ending a sentence with DUDE
4. Teachers who hang Do Not Disturb signs on their doors
5. People wearing sweatpants more than twice in one week

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Campus Walks

If you are walking behind a group of girls on campus this is the what you will hear
G1- "He's such as asshole, he went to a strip club and lied to me about it, I had to find out about it on Facebook."
G2- "What?"(She shakes her head)
G1- "Ha, And Saturday night when we went out some girl he knows, she is beautiful and smart, was there......I saw him grab her ass. What the fuck my life is like a fucking soap opera right now."

If your walking behind a group of guys on campus you will just hear who they slept with, who they want to sleep with, or most likely who they are pretending to have slept with.

First of all let me say, if you are enjoying what you are doing by all means please continue. But no one wants to hear about your fake ass, soap opera, two-faced, bullshit, not your best friend, not your mom, not the person walking with you to the gym, and especially not the kid walking 3 paces in front of you(me).

Monday, January 30, 2012

Quote

It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat. 
-Theodore Roosevelt

Thursday, January 12, 2012

New Year Resolution

1- Challenge myself
2- Brush teeth before going to bed
3- Stop taking myself so fucking seriously

Going back to school in a few days, had a good break, made some money, relaxed, and spent some good time with family. But looking forward to getting back to school.