Im no different, more work to do done

I just got really lucky. Really really lucky. Pure lucky.

Half the time I am greatful, but the other half I am hateful, resentful, and jealous.

I should have done more, it missed my big chance, I didn't do as well as him.

.....

I was under the illusion that I was different. That I was greatful for my luck. I was not like everyone else.

I would overcome the mindless, the negative, the ego.

Nope. I am just like everyone else.

More work to do. More meditation to practice. More Osho to read!